Love should be selfless. You should not expect anything from anyone. It (love, relationships, everything) should just be. We habitually over complicate almost everything. Instead we should recognize things for their simple true forms. When love is, then it is truly beautiful. Labels and expectations pollute, dilute, and the result is delusion; when they are expelled, it will be clear there is nothing to be afraid of.I wrestle with the complexities of love (among other things), but she's right, we do overly complicate damn near everything. Especially me. Which is ironic, because a friend of mine wrote me this earlier:
I do over-think EVERYthing. Every experience I go through I think of about two or three scenarios, and usually that prevents me from just being spontaneous. I'm constantly wondering what could happen, what might happen, how I'd feel if so-and-so happened, what effects it might have on my future ... which is consuming. I swallow myself in my own thoughts, how weird.
It's kind of amazing though how I tend not to stress myself out over some things, mainly money. Today I dropped my phone and for the first time in my life, severely broke it to the point where it was unusable. I was pretty devastated. I called T-Mobile and explained to them how I was pretty sure that I had insurance. (hell, I better, I was paying extra on my bill) They saw that I did and told me to contact some other place who, after filling out a claim and paying a $130 deductible, are supposed to send me a phone tomorrow. Tomorrow. Air mail. If it really comes tomorrow I'll feel great.
Still, I was kind of mad that my momentary carelessness cost me $130. This is just a day after spending $200+ on new tires for my car. & then I decided to pay my $133 phone bill. So yeah, all that talk I had about saving money a few blog posts ago ... out the window lol. My Black Friday fund is back to scratch. I was really planning on getting a dslr and those Jordans, but now I may settle for just those Jordans and get the camera for Christmas. My original plan was to buy myself an iPad for Christmas, but whatever. Do I really need all of these gadgets? I'm looking for something for my mom and am determined to get her something nice. I'll probably go with jewelry considering that I've never given her some nice, nice jewelry. Suggestions would be nice too, I know some females read this, ha.
Oh, and for the first time in a week I finished my math homework. I actually did two sections tonight, and I'll do the rest tomorrow night and this weekend. I've been so tired and swamped that I pushed math to the backburner which wasn't the smartest decision, but whatever, I'm back on it.
Today a few friends at school and I went to that rap contest I was talking about. I didn't enter it, unfortunately. Yeah, unfortunately lol. It was a straight coonfest. Just loud, obnoxiousness. It reminded me of when I had that performance at a night club, and the crowd was the exact opposite of the type of music I do. It was uncomfortable so I'm glad I didn't perform yesterday. I probably would've felt soooo out of my element. Seeing all of those terrible rappers makes me question my skills, but at the same time want to push myself. I'm trying to get in the groove of writing every day though, so hopefully I show signs of improvement. (funny, I'm listening to Room for Improvement right now)
I have to become a famous rapper so I can make enough money to put something like this in my apartment. Seriously.
It's kind of amazing though how I tend not to stress myself out over some things, mainly money. Today I dropped my phone and for the first time in my life, severely broke it to the point where it was unusable. I was pretty devastated. I called T-Mobile and explained to them how I was pretty sure that I had insurance. (hell, I better, I was paying extra on my bill) They saw that I did and told me to contact some other place who, after filling out a claim and paying a $130 deductible, are supposed to send me a phone tomorrow. Tomorrow. Air mail. If it really comes tomorrow I'll feel great.
Still, I was kind of mad that my momentary carelessness cost me $130. This is just a day after spending $200+ on new tires for my car. & then I decided to pay my $133 phone bill. So yeah, all that talk I had about saving money a few blog posts ago ... out the window lol. My Black Friday fund is back to scratch. I was really planning on getting a dslr and those Jordans, but now I may settle for just those Jordans and get the camera for Christmas. My original plan was to buy myself an iPad for Christmas, but whatever. Do I really need all of these gadgets? I'm looking for something for my mom and am determined to get her something nice. I'll probably go with jewelry considering that I've never given her some nice, nice jewelry. Suggestions would be nice too, I know some females read this, ha.
Oh, and for the first time in a week I finished my math homework. I actually did two sections tonight, and I'll do the rest tomorrow night and this weekend. I've been so tired and swamped that I pushed math to the backburner which wasn't the smartest decision, but whatever, I'm back on it.
Today a few friends at school and I went to that rap contest I was talking about. I didn't enter it, unfortunately. Yeah, unfortunately lol. It was a straight coonfest. Just loud, obnoxiousness. It reminded me of when I had that performance at a night club, and the crowd was the exact opposite of the type of music I do. It was uncomfortable so I'm glad I didn't perform yesterday. I probably would've felt soooo out of my element. Seeing all of those terrible rappers makes me question my skills, but at the same time want to push myself. I'm trying to get in the groove of writing every day though, so hopefully I show signs of improvement. (funny, I'm listening to Room for Improvement right now)
I have to become a famous rapper so I can make enough money to put something like this in my apartment. Seriously.
2 comments:
I always buy my mother a designer handbag, because she's too cheap to buy her own. Last year it was a gorgeous Cole Haan satchel I snagged on Black Friday. Birthdays, it's Michael Kors. Those are incredibly moderately priced compared to what I really want to see her carry -- LV. But she'd choke me if I spent that type of money on her. Maybe yours won't. So instead of buying yourself that coin purse (that I totally approve of, btw), buy your mom the matching wallet.
Hm, not a bad idea. She's so particular about her wallets and things, like, I've gone out with her when she's bought one and they have to have a million pockets and whatnot. I'd have to make sure it was up to her standards, lol. That does sound like it'd get more use than jewelry though.
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