You know how people say, "as long as you're happy, I'm happy." I always though that that was kind of ... passive-aggressive. To me it was like saying, "knowing that you can be happy without me is going to eat at me alive, but I'll be sure to be on a fake smile for you."
In some ways, I still believe that too. It's hard to be happy for someone who you marginally want to see happy because of you. But then at some point in time, when the memories start to fade away and your feelings slowly wane you understand that you won't be that person. And so you genuinely move to going, "Oh shit. I didn't think it was possible ... but I'm happy that they're happy and it isn't because of me."
Like accepting your fate.
Oh, and new desktop. Somewhat calming.
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