close the door.

Playing this College Dropout out ... until it runs out, then on to Late Registration.
Then Graduation.
Then I guess it'll be time for bed.

So yeah, I've been gone for a little bit ... from this blogging stuff. Some things have happened, both with me, with you the readers, with the world ...

Honestly ... nahh.
-scraps that.

While I've been gone, I've been writing a lot. I've been working a lot, and it's been super busy ... but when I can get a minute of free time at work, I'm writing. Not recording really, but just writing. It's so releasing, yet so stressing. I listen to a lot of artists too now, one of them being Blu. I recently acquired two of his mixtapes and dude is official. I like his style. I wish I had my style ...
I was writing something at work [it's hot too! ... i think. =( ] and I realized that I don't know where I am, musically. Or I don't know where I want to go lyrically ... but I do know that I want to GO. Get out there. Get my music to the world in any way, shape, form or fashion. I guess that's why I get mad that I don't have a million friends on myspace, or people asking about my mixtape or when it's dropping ... [3 days from never]. Wait. I like that. Title maybe?
I recently saw some pics of some friends of mine, who are making big moves. They had a photo shoot at a studio. A studio ... where I so desperately want to be. Anyway, enough of this. Back to what I do best, I think ...

Imagine, a rapper that's rappin with no passion
Imagine, a video girl with no ass and
Imagine white cops, black folks harassin
Stereotypical violence, ignorance amassin
... so while sittin at your mass
Prayin for some change, even harder for some cash
Just to spend on fashion, you flashin,
the lights are gettin bright and the wavy light skinned girls are gassin

Eh.

I think for some reason ... I'm getting closer to my ex ... and it's scaring me. Just because I don't like to look back on things. For the most part, if we had a relationship or anything near it, and it didn't work out, then that's that. I don't like going back to people. That's how I can say that I don't like so and so, or don't talk to this person ...
But with this ex, it's different. We dated such a long time ago it feels brand new. I think though ... no, I know ... that I don't want her like that. Sometimes I do, and sometimes I don't. When she was here, I did. Now we're making plans to "cuddle". =| No lie. And that's something that I wouldn't mind doing with someone I care about, so I wouldn't mind doing it with her ... but at the same time, I don't see her being my next gf. I'm ... 98% sure. I just don't think I could go that route with her.

So I'm still looking. And it's weird.

I think also, a few of you feel certain ways about me. One of you I don't even know, yet I DO KNOW that you feel this about me, or feel that. Or that you think I did this ... and wow. I'm infuriated at people that don't know me that have this general idea about me. Or when they think I did something. WacArnold's. And he's wack. And lame. And yes, I have a complex. But who cares? lol.

I feel like Kanye on this track though ...

when i finally get my first real money?
nigga, keepin' it real, imma act real funny
why?
cuz these dudes try to Sanford & Son me ...

Man.
I kind of hate all of you a little bit, just a little bit.
Yeen never show love ...

Some of you have gone astray after getting that "nu-nu" ... others been fake ... others just ...

I guess more tomorrow. Maybe. Or in a week depending.

Oh, and if you blame me, do it to MY face.

wait. let me stop. my blogs aren't meant to be mean.

everyone have a good fucking day. :)

LMAO. that was funny.

you can try to kill me, but i come back
hate me, that's a small thing
-Nas

THE END.