answer the phone.

So here we go with this again
Running at them lips again
Yellin' in my ear and shit
All I hear is whisperin

Man, Trey is waaaaaay underrated. Seriously. That "Can't Help But Wait" was my song for abot 3 weeks ... then I got the album and played "Missin' You" non-stop. I need to go re-download his mixtapes.

Speaking of downloading stuff and whatnot, I was able to get a program to pull the songs off of my iPod and put them back on my laptop. While I didn't have my entire library on my laptop, I did have half (3,000 songs) so that's definitely a good thing. Now I don't have to go back and add alllllll of that stuff back. Just a few choice albums.

So on Friday I was on the way home on the bus right? And there's this guy next to me, clean,
dressed up or whatever. And across from us was this girl, with her two daughters. Cute little girls, well behaved or whatnot. She was cute too y'know.

Anyway, we ride for about 10-15 minutes, then the guy pulls the cord to get off. The bus stops, he gathers his stuff ... places this small piece of paper in the girls' lap and gets off the bus. It was TOO smooth. And I was just sitting there, smiling like an idiot lol.

And really, I was as much jealous, as I was astonished that he did. Jealous in the sense that something as minute and smooth and simple as that could go a long way. For all I know they could be talking on the phone right now, making plans ... and it all started because he saw something he liked and went and made a move.

I realize now that by overthinking everything, I'm passing up on a lot of opportunities in life. I contemplate things to the point where it just ... evaporates.

"does she like me?"
"does she have a boyfriend?"
"is what i'm wearing nice enough?"

too many questions and not enough action ... so I guess Thursday I'll be proactive. =]

sfsgdgfhf

I'm in such a ... +/- mood. Like, my work life is stressing me THE FUCK OUT. Like, waaaaay out, to the point where I get sad. Literally, sad to go to work. And I sit on the bus and think of jumping through those doors in the road. Either I'll die, or I'll run away to somewhere. Idk.

Then there's "life-life". And it's alright. Not all peachy, but compared to work life, it's all good. Music is making me feel so good, and playing ps2 online is a good de-stressor. I kind of want a ps3 REALLY bad now lol. I can't start saving up for one though, because that new MacBook is taking priority over everything. But am I getting a new pair of shoes Friday. I knowwww, I knowwww, I buy a lot of shoes. Shoot me. These aren't Dunks though!

They're fly, aren't they? I saw them in a store ... not sure if I'm going to get the blue colorway or the black ... what do you suggest? I think I'm leaning towards black.
Actually ... looking at the blue ... I kind of like those more. Let's hope they have them at the mall. Malls suck for shopping now, I swear. I've developed into a "boutique/online" person.

I updated the music, so there are a few new additions to the playlist. The first song playing is this dude Theo. He's crazy good with the flow and wordplay. I'm currently playing the shit out of his mixtape. I also put the Drake, Mickey Factz & Travis McCoy song up there. Drake on the first verse ... it was ... ... ... just listen lol. More evidence as to why he's IMO a top-5 rapper at the moment.

Uhm. I have a crush.

LMAO. This girl @ work that I call "Penny Proud" says that I have a million crushes. lol, she's maybe right. Thing is, I can differentiate a crush from ... something that I want to be so much more. So this girl is just a crush at the moment, although she has the tools to be something more. Or not tools, potential I should say. Let's see where it goes ...

Ooh, look at my widgets.!



anyway, I want to go talk to her some more.
she intrigues me. which is, amazing.

THE END.