I mean, damn ... I should just cue Kanye's "Champion" as I write this blog. Nah, fuck that. I'm not even a champion. I don't have the heart of a champion. The desire ...
I think that you're born with it, but it has to be fed into. I know that at times I feel like I can't stop doing what I do, and I get all inspired and go hard for a little bit. Then I fall back kind of. Those are the times when I think of like, Diddy and Jay-Z and Russell Simmons and wonder if they ever slept a minute. Or just gave up. I realize that they probably didn't.
They probably thought about it ... but kept going. Persevered. But I don't know a damn about persevering though. Unless it's about how I persevered to get Anna B's attention. Maybe it was when I used to ask my mom for something over and over again. So if I could do it for that, why can't I do it for whatever it is that I want now?
I won't lie. I want the sweet right now. I don't want to go through the bad stuff. I mean, who does? So yeah, I looked for the easy way out on a lot of things. In school ... music ... women ... shit everything. All I do is take shortcuts, you know? Or all I did. Now, I think I know that I got to put in a lot of hard work. Which is messed up because I’m sort of lazy? But whatever. Enough of that ...
... watching old videos on MTV2, I don't think y'all realize how fly Jennifer Lopez was like, 5 years ago. She was seriously styling on A LOT of women. I'll take her over Cassie too. And that's big considering Cassie is my #2. Y'all remember that video "I'm Real" with Ja Rule?!
Tell me that wasn't hard. Like, for real. I put year 2000 up against any of these chicks today. ANY OF EM! Tell me who's doing it better. For real. You can't. That's my bodiqua. LOL.
I also got a picture today. I don't even know why I'm showing you this. This is at the wedding. Back when I had hair. Maaaaan, I kind of miss it, I can't even lie.
http://tinypic.com/view.php?pic=33coena&s=4
I'm going to judo-chop Arielle if she won't stop complaining about me not having that " 'fro ". But uhhhh ... let me finish this job application for the YMCA. A brother is struggling these days ...