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I hate that I can't go back there. I say I won't allow myself, but I feel like I can't. I'm semi-scared to, to be honest.

What's that quote from A Tale Of Two Cities? "It was the best of times, it was the worst of times ..." That's exactly what it was. And remnants lay that I am careful to step over but sometimes I just want to kneel down and feel them. Look at them and wonder if maybe one day I could build something like that again.

It'd probably just crumble on top of me.