I've been chilling with J. Dilla eating Donuts on my breaks at work. Today has been fantastically chill. So far, 2009 hasn't been all that bad. Truthfully I'm demanding that I see success in my life on a grand scale and for the first time in my life I'm actually working hard towards that.
The story I was writing was all fine and dandy but what's funny is that when I write it, I'm writing what I want to happen in my life. Drama and all, it seems as if story Eric is living a lil' better than real Eric. I don't mind that though because I'm working towards making my life the real-life version of Entourage. All of this is stuff none of you care about, but I doubt I'd care about things in your life unless you meant something to me ... even though I read some of your blogs and e-live vicariously through you. Or not.
"Denim that's overpriced ...
Liquor that's over iced...
And I'm tryna make all my goals for the future happen overnight."
Word, man. I need to work on something of that caliber. My goals for '09 come a little late, but I honestly couldn't/didn't want to think about any.
1. Release "dumb fly & literate".
2. Make trip to Chicago (start looking for apt's there ... but more on that later).
3. Find a honey dip ... (LOL, I'm half-joking, but then again I'm not).
4. Reduce my Pepsi consumption to a bottle every two days.
5. Save more than I spend.
6. Convince Lizzy to make me a new MySpace.
Not too much on there, since I'm not one for too many goals ... I tend to start tons of shit and never accomplish it. Like, filming these questions for Rebecca. That I PROMISE she'll have by Tuesday midnight.
I’ve been finally working hard on my mixtape, and admittingly a lot less hard on the story. I actually want to rewrite the whole entire thing; I kind of DO want to be an author I’ve decided, and would like this to be a pretty good story. Maybe it might just be a short story, I don’t know. My main priority is this mixtape.
I also realized my disdain for school. Not for education, I’m all for it … but for school in general. So I want to just do what I planned and take the 2nd semester off as well, and just make it me taking the school year off. My plans were always to go back in the Fall of 2009. I could care less about being “behind” because really, does that even matter? I feel that what I have a chance of doing I may never have the opportunity to do again. Music drives me … and even if I make crappy music, I would like to pursue that. My mother on the other hand, says that if I’m not in school, I have to go … so I’m planning my exit.
The overall feeling that I get is irritation. I’m irritated that she could give two fucks what I’m doing creatively. It’d be wonderful to know your parents supported you in whatever endeavor you engaged in, but whatever. Feeling like people don’t really care isn’t foreign to me so I’ve learned to just roll with it. Not once has my mother asked to hear a song I’ve been working on, or asked to read my story. When I offered it was as if I was a nuisance. I understand you can support your son financially and whatnot, but actually taking a interest in what he loves? That can be just as, and is, important.
I guess you can add on to that list “find a new place”, although it’ll have to be sooner rather than later.
Oh, and Happy 300th post to myself. -throws invisible confetti.
4 comments:
finally you post, i been waiting on something to read...thats not about rape. i feel you on the whole family support thing too, my parents would give me the boot too if i quit college. but then again they have absolutely no idea what i do creatively,nor do they care, they think i'm weird. oh and the donut of the heart is my shit! i love dilla. he's fuel to my creative fire.
Ugh, the header is freaking 'hot' .. if it's from who I think made it then a big "LOL" to me!
If you wanted me to re-do your myspace, all you have to do is just tell me. Think of what you want & stuffs and just let me know. I'm always around!
UGH
and just so you know, I totally messed up my nail polish writing that comment to you
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A friend recommended your blog sooo I felt obligated to leave a comment since I read. This was very interesting to read. My older brother is an aspiring rapper. My mom really doesn't support his dream either; she wants him to do something more practical. There's a lot of effort that goes into pursuing a career in the music industry. This post kind of made me realize I need to be more supportive of my brother because I know if it were me, I would want my family to support me. I mean, I do support him but I think I should encourage him more. Well, good luck with your goals!
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