love&war.

Okay, so I'm weird.

I've accepted that. I've learned to take that in stride.
It always made me a little mad, because my peculiarities kept
me from getting things that iwanted, i.e. girls. The girls that
iwanted. I mean, I'm so damn picky iguess and it narrows the list
of girls that iwould even consider talking to. Then out of that list
ihave to find the girls that would like to talk to me. Usually it's hard
to achieve that balance.

Well, iMAY have found it. Except idon't necessarily
like her. But she, she is cool...she embraces my weirdness. Totally. In fact, it's
what has seemingly attracted her to me. Or me to her. whatever. idont know which
one is right. but whatever it is, it has her liking me. and me sort of dig'n
her. but only "sort of". and sorry, sort of doesn't really cut it for eric.
i'd rather feel alot of feelings for her so then icould tell her "okay i
like you and you should be my girl like sammie said." but nah, idont
think ican do that. and because of that she's going to think that
im playing with her when ireally am not. she already thinks im
mean lol. damn. why is it like this? iknow all is fair in
love and war...but uhm, stop the bombing. iwant love.
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