I don't even know how I'm feeling.
I'm still looking for validation from the people in my life.
I'm not sad or anything (I think), so I don't want to attribute this funk that I'm in to sadness. I just feel very, very alone. I think to myself, "Maybe everyone in the world feels alone. Surrounded by people, but alone at the same time." It sort of makes me feel better to think that.
I'm tired of connecting with people from across the world. I met a girl here, saw a little hope. A few days later we're talking and her boyfriend comes up in the conversation. You would think think that I would expect that to happen.
People that say, "be patient, wait and someone will come to you," are annoying. I've been single for a long time and it's like disappointment after disappointment after disappointment. I have a love life comparable to the Chicago Cubs championship hopes. I do not want to meet any more people 8,000 miles away. I want someone to hang with, talk face to face with, take pictures of.
I figure God's got to throw me a fastball down the middle one of these days.
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:( i thought about writing you a really positive comment, but then I thought about all the times I felt the way you do now and I didn't want to hear anything good.
All I'm going to say is I hope it gets better for you and if you ever want to talk you've got my digits.
aww Ur such a great guy I'm surprise to hear your single.O_o Shit happens... Life is weird and unpredictable all you gotta do is live throw to get all the goods. I l know we don't live close but we should chat... unseenslaughter (for aim and skype)
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